Fresh Start

So, I leave tomorrow to go to Sweden for a year and I'm having a lot of mixed emotions right now. I'm really excited, but I'm also really scared and nervous. Even then it's almost as I think about it like I get to start another life or get a redo for a year. No one will know me at all or know that I'm a twin and instantly start comparing me to her. That's what I've realized over the past week of thinking things over and preparing myself to go, I now no longer have the stigma over me of Erin and Alyssa. I am now just Erin and it is scarier than beep, but she has defined me over the years as I have defined her. Now that's over and I've realized that I don't really know who I am without her as cliche as that sounds. Even more cliche that technically I'm going to Sweden for a year to find myself, but felt lead by God to go because I don't tend to trust him as much as I should. We all know that I am the least likely candidate to move away to an unknown place with no friends awaiting, but even more to trust Him and know that he must have great plans for me there. I know it will be bad at first and I'm gonna wonder why I was so insane to move across the ocean for a year, but then it will get familiar and I'm gonna wonder why I ever doubted coming. A lot of my thoughts have been goin towards finding as good of friends as I have at ETSU, but I was talking to my Momma (grandmother) on the phone the other day and she was surprised that I was going by myself and had thought I was goin with a group from ETSU. She then went on to say " ya know Erin, I've moved to a lot of new places, started new jobs, and gone to new schools over the years, it's always nerve racking at the beginning, but eventually you make friends and it becomes just like it was at the last place." It's exactly what I needed to hear from someone that didn't know I even needed to hear it and since then I have just been worrying mostly if I'm gonna throw up on the random dude sitting next to me on the plane, maybe I'll just use some dramamine to knock myself out we all know how well that works for me, haha.
Anyways, I'll probably try to post something every couple of weeks on here and maybe some pictures too. Gotta go to bed got a long day and a half of traveling ahead of me.